Psychiatric Survivor

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2011-06-15T16:33:00.001-04:00

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Stop Forced Electroshock!

2011-02-19T15:15:00.000-05:00

67 Year Old Woman Refuses ECT Shock: Judge Says "Drag Her In!" LINK CLICK HERE

Back to Wordpress

2010-06-01T07:37:00.003-04:00

I'm going back to a Wordpress.com blog host today.
http://psychsurvivor2.wordpress.com/

About $17.00 made on the ads here. Google doesn't write a cheque for small amounts. I received no money.

UPDATE: I think this whole blogging thing might be fake. Today July 16, 2010 I was not signed in to blogger, web-surfing and my old blog page was on display. I sign in and the web page changed to my last revision.

Aesop's Fables:The Hare and the Tortoise pg 36-37

2010-05-31T09:36:00.003-04:00

Aesop's Fables
The Hare and the Tortoise pg 36-37
A Hare was continually poking fun at a tortoise because of the slowness of his pace. The tortoise tried not to be annoyed by the jeers of the hare, but one day in the presence of the other animals he was goaded into challenging the hare to a foot race.
"Why, this is a joke,"said the hare."You know that I can run circles around you."
"Enough of your boasting," said the tortoise.
"Let's get on with the race."
So the course was set by the animals, and the fox was chosen as judge. He gave a sharp bark and the race was on. Almost before you could say "scat" the hare was out of sight. The tortoise plodded along at his usual unhurried pace.
After a time the hare stopped to wait for the tortoise to come along. He waited for a long, long time until he began to get sleepy. "I'll just take a quick nap here in this soft grass, and then in the cool of the day I'll finish the race."
So he lay down and closed his eyes.
Meanwhile, the tortoise plodded on. He passed the sleeping hare, and was approaching the finish line when the hare awoke with a start. It was too late to save the race. Much ashamed, he crept away while all the animals at the finish line acclaimed the winner.

MORAL : Slow and steady wins the race.

Healthy Digestion

2010-05-28T12:34:00.006-04:00

Update : Psychology Today has an article in November 2011 titled
"Your Backup Brain"with funny caricatures of the stomach.
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Over at Beyond Meds I read.
Gianna "I talk about IBS on this site very often because IBS is rampant in the mental health community. Having a healthy gut is imperative if one wants a healthy mind. I think that perhaps psychotropics make it worse too."

I think she might be not fully awake when she wrote this post.
Psychotropics definitely can negatively affect the digestion. If the meds/drugs/chemicals lower feelings of stress, they might help digestion in a positive way.

Gastroparesis, also called delayed gastric emptying, is a disorder in which the stomach takes too long to empty its contents. Normally, the stomach contracts to move food down into the small intestine for digestion. The vagus nerve controls the movement of food from the stomach through the digestive tract. Gastroparesis occurs when the vagus nerve is damaged and the muscles of the stomach and intestines do not work normally. Food then moves slowly or stops moving through the digestive tract.

The vagus is also called the pneumogastric nerve since it innervates both the lungs and the stomach.

Vagotomy (cutting of the vagus nerve) is a now-obsolete therapy that was performed for peptic ulcer disease. Vagotomy is currently being researched as a less invasive alternative weight loss procedure to gastric bypass surgery. The procedure curbs the feeling of hunger and is sometimes performed in conjunction with putting bands on patients' stomachs, resulting in average weight loss of 43% at six months with diet and exercise.

Our stomach and muscles contract to move the food along the intestine. The meds/drugs/chemicals that affect the brain, also affect digestion.

"The gut contains 100 million neurons - more than the spinal cord. Major neurotransmitters like serotonin, dopamine, glutamate, norephinephrine and nitric oxide are in the gut."

I don't know about the veracity of the quote, but feeling hungry or feeling constipated is a basic emotion we all need to have as a human being. Without it we would be one step closer to a unfeeling machine.

Photo for May 26, 2010

2010-05-26T15:14:00.003-04:00

I am announcing I am going back to wordpress June 1st.
This five month stay on blogger has produced no income from adverts.
I appologise to those that have switched five months ago and linked to me.
Sorry.
I thought I might make some money, but didn't.

Bystander effect, imaginary aloneness

2010-05-24T15:58:00.004-04:00

Feeling alone (separate) in a crowd of people (fellow humans) in the city, illogical on the physical level as there are physically people around, but in reality imaginary aloneness is emotionally felt due to the rules of the city , and / or the bystander effect with a stranger you don't know."It's somebodies elses responsibility, I'm busy doing my job of minding my own business."
It is kind of psychopathic to not feel anything for the stranger, yet it is the rule.

Before the magical term psychopathy was invented, Jesus reportedly told this story.“A Jewish man was travelling on a trip from Jerusalem to Jericho, and he was attacked by bandits. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him up, and left him half dead beside the road. By chance a priest came along. But when he saw the man lying there, he crossed to the other side of the road and passed him by. A Levite walked over and looked at him lying there, but he also passed by on the other side. Then a despised Samaritan came along, and when he saw the man, he felt compassion for him. Going over to him, the Samaritan soothed his wounds with olive oil and wine and bandaged them. Then he put the man on his own donkey and took him to an inn, where he took care of him. The next day he handed the innkeeper two silver coins, telling him, ‘Take care of this man. If his bill runs higher than this, I’ll pay you the next time I’m here.’ “Now which of these three would you say was a neighbor to the man who was attacked by bandits?” Jesus asked. The man replied, “The one who showed him mercy.” Then Jesus said, “Yes, now go and do the same.
(note: I had no idea of the information "Samaritans and Jews generally despised each other")

No one knows anyone else in the masses of people going to work in the city.
All agree to follow the rules. Don't you know the rules?

Go back in time 10,000 years and how common would this be?
Walking amongst many strangers along an artificial hard rock surface with walls and noise all around.

School children are often always talking and curious about the other person next to them. They trust the person next to them to be good, so they start to talk. The same as those with " intellectual disability" are very talkative/inquisitive on the bus.

Once children follow the rule of don't talk to strangers, they kick the seat or do other things to get other peoples attention (get conversation going?)- and express their dislike of the situation of muteness.. Bored or playing I am unsure.

No other animal on the planet would do it. No dog would and no monkey would walk-pass through a group of other dogs/other monkeys without interacting/communicating.

Little work would get done though if everyone was saying "hello how are you?" to most everyone we see, so the rule must stand.

Whats the difference between "attacked by bandits" and a homeless person. The homeless is continually attacked by bandits? In part, but some responsibility for the situation is their fault. Only thing I can say is as a human being, a citizen of the country, the homeless deserves a full stomach, cleanliness, and proper sleep to be cognisant and be themselves. People such as the homeless can be angry to others as it is a natural human emotion to the situation of hunger, dirt and pain don't you think?

I am lucky I have a medical welfare income, I would be a homeless person without it.
People call me paranoid, but people are out to screw me over and have screwed me over.
What for? For money.
Anyways stay positive. If you believe you are in a heaven you treat it as such and it becomes as such. I trust the police and justice system to keep the criminal-evil people behind bars.
Believe you are in a hell and you treat it as such, and it becomes as such.

End of "Lost" TV show

2010-05-24T05:59:00.005-04:00

Last night I was eagerly anticipating the Lost final. I turn on the TV at 7 PM to find them breaking the 4 th wall.

They (the actors, director, writers) are talking to the camera,

breaking the illusion that the story is "real"... STOP IT. Damn it! ruining my suspense of disbelief. Its okay to put this AT THE END but not just before the end Dammit.
So I wait for two hours, and find out by watching THE Finale (started at 9pm), is a long show.
I was worried a few times on how it was going to end. One time I thought it was going to be a literal cliff edge ending.

At first I didn't get it, the ending. After sleeping on it, the ending makes sense.

I remember when "Lost" first came out I hated it , as the initial beach scene with the still running airplane engine was impossible.

Spoiler
if you havent seen the ending dont read any more.
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Star Treks character of Spock putting the engine back together and Losts John putting the stone key back in place is pretty similar.

Birthday

2010-05-21T21:23:00.003-04:00

It was my birthday this week. Dark humor of The Perry Bible Fellowship seems good.

Which came first?

2010-05-20T14:40:00.002-04:00

As I am picking up trash, I find a bunch of trash often in the center of bushs.
So I wonder which came first the start of the growth of a bush, or the trash?

The trash offers some shelter from the elements, so I think it is possible the trash might be helping plants to start to grow.
Otherwise the wind blows the garbage there or people toss their garbage there.
Plants don't need the trash though.

Spiders and the flies they catch is another, I wonder how long did flies exist before spiders evolved-created to spin webs to catch them? If flies didn't exist the spiders would not exist.

I wonder about my friends on psychiatric chemicals. Will they ever get weaned off?
The psychiatrist would claim they have a better life.
I say no, they do not have a better life.
They are no longer "ill" , in practical terms, so the chemicals must be removed from a scientific point of view.
But the supposed doctors keeps the drugs flowing.

If there was no mental illness their would be no psychiatrists.
It's always the other guy down the street that is a "evil" pusher.
Most anyone evil can not perceive themselves to be evil, in their own narcissistic eyes.
It's like admitting you are wrong. From the person is powers point of view, they are doing the right thing.

Psychiatrists say that if you were REALLY crazy you wouldn’t know it.

As in you can not see-judge-reflect on your own actions objectively.

Question for psychiatrists: Is psychiatry crazy? from Patricia Lefave

New visual illusion

2010-05-18T07:39:00.004-04:00

I just found a new illusion.
If I was a con man I could tell you if you fail to see the yellow dots, you are mentally ill and need to take THIS medication for your illness.

Motion Induced Blindness LINK

EDIT: I forgot the Aesops fables story yesterday... sorry!

got some restful sleep

2010-05-16T04:16:00.004-04:00

I finally got some restful sleep. It's been months since I had any. I feel much less stressed/on edge as a result.
When I'm forgetful now it isn't the end of the world, like I could feel-worry it was in the past.
For example I forgot to put away the leftovers from supper, ( the plate was still too hot to be put in the fridge) and the next day when I found it, I didn't get too upset at the state of my mental health (that I had forget to put it away).

I got a bad bunch of contact lens. I didn't know if it was my spring allergies or these new ones until I got an old pair and found no trouble with my eyes. I trusted the store/optometrist and didn't keep the bill so technically it will be difficult to complain of the bad batch. I'm always getting screwed when I assume people or things to be trustworthy.

Definition of insanity

2010-05-14T11:47:00.002-04:00

"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and
expecting different results. "

-Benjamin Franklin

Dunning-Kruger_effect

def: The Dunning–Kruger effect is a cognitive bias in which "people reach erroneous conclusions and make unfortunate choices but their incompetence robs them of the metacognitive ability to realize it.

Click on to enlarge.

From my Journal : What is mental illness? June 28,2009

2010-05-12T20:18:00.002-04:00

From my Journal
What is mental illness? June 28,2009
Mental illness is when a person can no longer function, communicate, or follow social norms.
A person can't take care of themselves.
A person eats too little or too much.
A person sleeps too little or too much.
A person drinks (alcohol)/consume drugs too much.
A person can't work a job or whatever is expected of them.

Psychiatry's job is to take over for the person who can not function.
To get the person to accept the psychiatrist-master, the person-patient has to accept they are ill.

Giving up ones sanity-free will to decide, how does one get it back?

When does psychiatry give up control of their patient?
How does psychiatry give up control?
Why would psychiatry give up control?
Can psychiatry give up control?

Shout Out to Beyond Meds

2010-05-11T19:40:00.003-04:00

Beyond Meds
author Gianna Kali is having success recovering from psychiatric chemicals/drugs/medicines.

I thought a "shout out" to her, to recognize her success a necessity. This post is for you Gianna.

She did not win a dosie-award, but wrote a great piece on her dislike of Pharma Co. who sells their meds-drugs as "safe".

And there was a nice post a short time ago called "improvement-by-god", a 3 month anniversary of drug freedom.

Congratulations!

Aesop's Fables:Androcles and the Lion pg 34-35

2010-05-10T16:21:00.001-04:00

Aesop's Fables
Androcles and the Lion pg 34-35
Once there was a slaved named Androcles who was cruelly treated by his master. When the opportunity came he escaped to the forest. In his wanderings he came upon a lion. His first instinct was to turn about and flee. Then he noticed that the lion seemed to be in great distress and was moaning and whimpering piteously.

As the slave came near, the lion put out his paw, which was swollen and bleeding. A large thorn had penetrated one of the lion's toes, and this was the cause of all of the animals discomfort. Quickly Androcles pulled out the thorn and bound up the wounded paw. To show his gratitude the lion licked the man's hand like a dog, and then he led him to his cave for a shelter. Every day, after his wound had healed, he would go hunting in the forest and return with fresh meat for his master's refreshment.

But one day, when Androcles and the lion went out together, they were both captured and taken to the city to be used in the circus. The slave was to be thrown to the lion, after the animal had been kept without food for several days to make him more ferocious.

The Emperor and all his court came to the arena to view the spectacle. The despairing slave was unchained and led out into the amphitheater before the Emperor's box. Then the lion was let loose, and rushed bounding and roaring towards his victim. But as soon as he came near Androcles he recognized his friend. To the surprise of the audience, the lion seemed to fawn upon the slave whom they had expected to see torn to shreds by the savage beast. Pleased by this unusual spectacle the Emperor summoned Androcles to him, and the slave told him the whole story. Thereupon the slave was pardoned and freed, and the lion set loose to return to his native forest.

Moral: Gratitude is a quality not limited to man.

What I was cleaning

2010-05-08T21:04:00.004-04:00

What I was cleaning (in the previous post)is what you see in these photos. I think it was/is worth it.

Psychotic delusions

2010-05-08T19:57:00.004-04:00

Here are some of my psychotic hallucination-delusions. You can find more at my other blog Pollution in Montreal.

(I picked up all this garbage. {with thick plastic gloves on})

Missed the ECT protest in Montreal

2010-05-08T12:34:00.002-04:00

I missed the ECT protest in Montreal today May 8th.
I just figured it out now.
I was confused between the 8th and the 9th of May .
I thought they were having it on Sunday, Mothers day.
My personal stress levels that are at a high level kept me confused.
Sorry guys :(

Photos of the day May 5, 2010

2010-05-05T18:57:00.003-04:00

Old joke

2010-05-04T07:21:00.004-04:00

You might remember this old joke twist I put on my blog long ago. I changed the wording to "Escape from psychiatry", both the patient and psychiatrist are trapped in the cycle of drugs, if only drugs are used to explain the cause-solution to mental illness.

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I found a new comic today, similar, but with with intent of the ties and responsibilities of husband and wife in a marriage.

Aesop's Fables:The Goatherd and the Goats pg 33

2010-05-03T15:52:00.000-04:00

Aesop's Fables:
The Goatherd and the Goats pg 33
One winter's day when the wind was blowing a gale and the snow was falling fast, a goatherd drove his goats, all white with snow, into a near-by cave for shelter. To his surprise, the goatherd found the cave already occupied by a herd of wild goats more numerous than his own.

The greedy man, thinking to secure them all, left his own goats to take care of themselves while he threw the branches which he had brought for them to the wild goats for fodder.

When the weather cleared, alas, the goatherd found that his own goats had perished from hunger, while the wild goats were off and away to the hills and wods. The foolish man returned a laughingstock to his neighbors, for he not only had failed to gain the herd of wild goats, but he had lost his own.

Moral : They who neglect old friends for the sake of new ones are rightly served when they lose both.

Failure: setting myself up for

2010-05-02T17:48:00.004-04:00

So I realized I was setting myself up for failure.

I was caring about this wooded area near where I live.

This was/is a mistake as the land owner is questionable.
The city or Roxboro or Montreal owns it and wants to sell it.

It employs various people/trades to build on it ( people got to make a living), city gets to collect taxs on a new $400,000.00 house.

What is/was there now is a bunch of old trees, old as they are tall.
A nice small woods and getting smaller by 75 feet at a time.

There is no way I can stop this progress.
I'm only going to get angry at the waste of a beautiful greenspace.
Cutting down heaven 75 feet at a time.
What are they going to do when there is no heaven left?
Cement streets and houses on every square inch of land that they can sell.

I will concentrate my cleaning efforts on legally defined park areas, where I know the greenspace will not/can not be bulldozed.

Bad news: personal May 2nd 2010

2010-05-02T17:25:00.003-04:00

The bad news for the day is that the landlord won his appeal .
The court date we had was on April 1st. Just got the judgement this week, but it was in french and google translate doesn't work too well on it.
Google told me I had lost in a bizarre English way, but I didn't want to believe it.
So today I got it official translated.

There is going to be ANOTHER HEARING, I don't know when, of the same case.
I get angry when this guy lies and then it doesn't go so well for me.
Anger management problems.

I wonder who gave that behaviour to me Doctor?
I need more Thorazine because I'm angry I'm in your jail and suffering on your poisons while tied into a stretcher? Now why would that make me angry?

Best Day Ever Cleaning

2010-04-30T09:57:00.002-04:00

Best Day Ever Cleaning
I clean public parks and green spaces or woods. Kind of like the movie "office space" philosophy of fresh air and outside.

Office Space (1999)

MICHAEL
I could probably get you a job if you want.

PETER
No, thanks. I'm doing good here.

PETER
Ok, will do. (They get in the car and leave) This isn't so bad, huh?
Making bucks, getting exercise, working outside.

I do it without official pay as it is voluntary, but I am paid by my medical social assistance.

Occasionally I find nickels dimes and quarters.

Today, after cleaning God knows how many bush's, I got a one in a million.
I found a twenty dollar bill in a bush while cleaning up the trash.
At first I thought it was a twenty torn in half, but as I examined it later it is an entire twenty! I can treat myself to a luxury in the month of May now.

Forgiveness

2010-04-29T10:01:00.002-04:00

Forgiveness.
I don't think psychiatry can ever forgive a mentally ill person for making a mistake.
Once "ill" always ill.

Psychiatry does not want to forgive anyone either. Why would it want to forgive a schizophrenic/witch/slave? What is its motivation?

As all humans make mistakes, nothing will or can satisfy psychiatry that a person is no longer mentally ill.

Because the patient is sick, they must take medication for their illness.

But the medication makes the person sick. Their brain can not function to its designed parameters when on drugs.

The psychiatrist does not want to give up hold on his/her patient. The psychiatrist needs to be needed.

The patient can not seize power and declare him/herself sane. How can the patient prove he/she is well?
They can't, the medication stops the patient from performing as a fully functioning human being.

If the patient quits the medication to achieve higher brain function, for better memory, higher intelligence (to try to earn redemption/forgiveness from their masters), they can get angry at being controlled and treated like a subhuman slave.

The addictive and body changing medications keep the cycle going.

Robert Whitaker: "Absolutely. Stephen Hyman, a well-known neuroscientist and the former director of the National Institute of Mental Health, wrote a paper in 1996 that looked at how psychiatric drugs affect the brain. He wrote that all these drugs create perturbations in neurotransmitter functions. And he notes that the brain, in response to this drug from the outside, alters its normal functions and goes through a series of compensatory adaptations.

In other words, it tries to adapt to the fact that an antipsychotic drug is blocking normal dopamine functions. Or in the case of antidepressants, it tries to compensate for the fact that you're blocking a normal reuptake of serotonin. The way it does this is to adapt in the opposite way. So, if you're blocking dopamine in the brain, the brain tries to put out more dopamine and it actually increases the number of dopamine receptors. So a person placed on antipsychotic drugs will end up with an abnormally high number of dopamine receptors in the brain. "

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"Give up their power"

Privileged classes do not give up their privileges voluntarily. They do not give them up without strong resistance.

Since most autocratic rulers will not give up their power voluntarily, others who really want it have to wrest it forcibly away from them.

They would never give up their power voluntarily. Nor could they be forced to give it up — it was fortified far too strongly for any Leader to take it away.

ruling elites are never ready to give up their power voluntarily. If they do so, there must be some special conditions which motivate them.

Tyrants never give up their power voluntarily.

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“when mankind has chopped down the last tree and poisoned the last river, we will realize that we can not eat money.”

Shoot first, ask questions later

2010-04-28T08:43:00.007-04:00

More on "You come to a building you've been called to, but it's not on fire, what do you do?"

Set it on fire, he answers.

Shoot first, ask questions later.
Assume that everyone you encounter is hostile to you. Take action, even though you do not know enough to be sure if it is the right action.

Psychiatrist assumes that every patient he encounters is sick. Takes action, even though he does
not know enough to be sure if it is the right action.
Proven in the second half of David Rosenhan experiment.
The non-existent impostor experiment.
For this experiment, Rosenhan used a well-known research and teaching hospital, whose staff had heard of the results of the initial study, but claimed that similar errors could not be made at their institution. Rosenhan claimed that during a three month period, one or more pseudopatients would attempt to gain admission and the staff were required to detect which patients were impostors. Out of 193 patients, 41 were considered to be impostors and a further 42 were considered suspect. In reality, Rosenhan had sent no pseudopatients and all patients suspected as impostors by the hospital staff were genuine patients.

Example:If the foreman saw that one of the workers was working slowly, he didn't stop to find out if the worker was sick or unhappy; he just fired him. He believed in shooting first and asking
questions later.

Torture
Torture, as we are often told, does not work. It leads to innocent people admitting to crimes they did not commit, simply in order to stop the pain.

People will say anything to stop the pain.

All told, the pseudopatients were administered nearly 2,100 pills, including Elavil, Stelazine,

Compazine, and Thorazine, to name but a few.

no marks on the body
Dating back to the Spanish Inquisition, the suffocation of bound prisoners with water has been

favored because, unlike most other torture techniques, it produces no marks on the body. CIA

officers who have subjected themselves to the technique have lasted an average of 14 seconds

before capitulating.

According to at least one former CIA official, information retrieved from the waterboarding may

not be reliable because a person under such duress may admit to anything, as harsh interrogation techniques lead to false confessions. "The person believes they are being killed, and as such, it really amounts to a mock execution, which is illegal under international law", says John Sifton of Human Rights Watch. It is "bad interrogation. I mean you can get anyone to confess to anything if the torture's bad enough", said former CIA officer Bob Baer.

The only way out was to point out that they're [the psychiatrists] correct. They had said I was

insane, 'I am insane; but I am getting better.' That was an affirmation of their view of me." —

David Rosenhan

Apparently, once they stuck the label on the patient, nothing the pseudo patient could do would

change the expectations of the professional staff.

Professional interrogators use a variety of methods to extract information without torture. They

attempt to establish a rapport with the prisoner, often treating them with respect, or using a

good cop/bad cop routine. Another method involves belittling the prisoner's abilities in an

attempt to get them to brag about what they've done, building their ego back up and releasing

information useful to the interrogator at the same time. These methods are regarded as more

effective than torture as they do not give the prisoner the same incentive to lie in order to

make the interrogation cease.

Narrowing the definition of torture: An August 2002 Department of Justice memorandum cited U.S. reservations to the Convention that narrowly define torture, limiting physical pain to organ failure, death or impairment of bodily function. The memorandum argued that the President, as commander-in-chief, was entitled to authorize torture and cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment based on necessity or self-defense.[2] This memorandum was replaced in December 2004, but the revised memorandum does not define torture, nor does it disavow the arguments in the August 2002 memorandum that the President has commander-in-chief authority to authorize torture.

Organ Failure
http://psy.psychiatryonline.org/cgi/content/full/46/5/418
The reasons why persons with serious mental illness are more prone to develop diabetes are not

known with certainty but may include the high prevalence of obesity in this group and the use of

second-generation antipsychotic medications.

Control of the Mentally ill
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/10/09/nyregion/09mental.html?pagewanted=all

Ms. Reller felt herself getting sicker, but did not want to go back to the hospital. “I cannot

live in that prison,” her mother recalls her saying.

The next day, while Ms. Weil was at the supermarket, Ms. Reller swallowed 25 or 30 of her

mother’s heart pills mixed with lemon oil furniture polish. She died of organ failure in July

after 10 days on a respirator.

“I still berate myself,” Ms. Weil said. But if something good were to come out of her daughter’s

death, she said, it would be for others to get the chance her daughter did not get. “Many of the

people in the adult homes are well enough to live in a freer environment, to be part of the

world,” she said. “In my daughter’s case, she was just so sick.”

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aron_Ralston
he was forced to amputate his lower right arm with a dull knife in order to free himself after his arm became trapped by a boulder

"The Cage" star trek transcript
MAGISTRATE: We had not believed this possible. The customs and history of your race show a unique hatred of captivity. Even when it's pleasant and benevolent, you prefer death. This makes you too violent and dangerous a species for our needs.

Math and Psychiatry don't mix.

2010-04-26T08:02:00.002-04:00

Math and Psychiatry don't mix.

Math joke.

A mathematician is taking his written exam to become a firefighter.

The second to last question is: you come to a burning building, what do you do?

Put the fire out, he answers.

The last question is,"You come to a building you've been called to, but it's not on fire, what do you do?"

Set it on fire, he answers.

Later, the examiner calls him in to ask about that last answer. Why would you set it on fire?

Because, says the mathematician, then it's reduced to a problem I know how to solve.

I think you are smart enough to carry the analogy over to psychiatry and a patient they have to treat. Setting the patient on fire/ forcing drugs on them, because then its reduced to a problem they have been trained to solve.

Can't remember

2010-04-25T18:51:00.000-04:00

I was supposed to do something on Monday, now I can't remember.
Should have wrote it down.

Worse than fired

2010-04-24T05:54:00.003-04:00

The other day I complained the Montreal city workers should be fired for not doing their jobs.

A Montreal city worker recently died by accident . Murphy (anything that can go wrong , will) showed up.

"Blue-collar worker falls to his death in Pierrefonds
Worker died Thursday after falling more than 13 metres at municipal water treatment plant

The Gazette
Thursday, April 22, 2010

A Montreal blue-collar worker died Thursday morning after falling more than 13 metres into an uncovered basin at a municipal water treatment plant in Pierrefonds."

3 AM pee time ramble, collection of thoughts

2010-04-23T03:57:00.004-04:00

What does psychiatry want? It want me to be just like them. "Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery." Who else to imitate but the new symbolic mom or dad who has the "correct" answers?

Along my travels I have concluded living on Earth is a type of heaven. If not heaven. I wish it to be in balance for its continuation of being a heaven.

According to psychiatry I am supposed to be selfish to be sane. Selfish enough to kill Earth, just like them. As in be a productive consumer/member of society.

I like Earth so much I clean it for free by picking up garbage in public green spaces. But the garbage (plastic) just goes to some other place to wait to rot for 10,000 years. Maybe I should just leave it. I felt I was being useful.

I got this answer of what it's all about.

"When property is allowed to be accessed communally, as is the case in public roads, parks, parking lots, etc, people abuse it and leave their trash and messes everywhere, because it is of no cost to them - after all, it isn't their property. It's just some commons, and other people will have to eat the cost." wrote pssvr.

It's work to be mindful of your trash. No one works for free. This is hell remember?

___________________________

Psychiatrists are Jailers, Eugenicists, Dope pushers, Priest-Saviour, Psychopaths, Sadists, Voyeur, Astrologer, and Betrayer.

But a necessary evil to save foolish people.

Jailer. Forced psychiatry is similar to (male to female) rape. The mind is raped. If the patient says the psych ward is a jail, judges his/her "helpful" psychiatrist a jailer, the psychiatrist judges him/her sick-mentally ill and the psychiatrist has the power to be the "right" one.

Eugenicists. brain chemistry imbalance inherited.

Dope pusher. life on drugs, poison that is not a poison, like jail is not a jail.

Priest-Saviour. "The doctor saved me from myself!"says patient. Praise the lord!

Psychopath. Don't mind the pollution, don't mind that car on the road polluting the air. "It isn't their property (the air). It's just some commons."

Sadists. Doctor enjoys "helping" people in their jail. Even if their prisoners don't want the help.

Voyeur. In studying a distant sun, an astronomer is scientifically watching it, if a psychiatrist watches their patient similarly , the psychiatrist may be a voyeur if they enjoy watching in a sexual way.

Astrologer-soothsayer. Predicting the future with the power and tools they have , makes the future come true.

Betrayer ( for the King/Queen) A king can not give up his thrown/crown, a young adult prince can not kill the king to gain power, but needs power to start a kingdom so goes mad. A Princess can not kill her Queen similarly.

Why is psychiatry in power/have power? Why does it exist? Because humans are at the top of the food pyramid , and our worse enemy is ourselves.

Depression and suicide from following the morals of consumer-capitalism.

Psychiatry is the only thing to potentially stop a suicider, stop the suicider so they might change their mind, so psychiatry has to exist to protect all the resources already spent on a human to get them to where they are.

Today April 20 ,2020

2010-04-20T20:12:00.002-04:00

This morning while walking to the park ahead of me, I saw a young boy with his mother pick up some garbage to throw out. Which he happily did. Murphy was against him when he tossed the garbage like a basketball shot and missed, but he didn't walk away, he picked up a second time. An inspiring thing to see. I wasn't going to do any cleaning myself and didn't bring any gloves or garbage bags. But due to witnessing the good will of the youngster, I felt I had to do some cleaning.
So I picked up a small amount that was on the shoreline.

As I was leaving the city of Montreal employees had come to collect the trash. Two guys. One to drive the truck , then get out and watch, and one to pick up and replace the black garbage bags out of the city garbage cans.

But these garbage men, just like Dollard des Ormeaux workers, only follow the letter of their job description.
Trash was all over the place and they ignored it as it wasn't in the garbage can.
Specifically there are these park tables, and who ever used them left paper cups and stuff all over. They didnt clean up after they used the public space.
The Montreal employees just ignored it all.
"Its not my job" they would say if asked.
The Dollard guys would not walk 30 odd feet to pick up a bunch of branches because the branches were not next to the sidewalk.

All these F'ers need to be fired in my opinion, but they won't be.
Whats the answer? I leave the garbage?

Garbage only breeds more garbage. When people see garbage around they don't give a second thought to dumping THEIR garbage , as it is already dirty.
Whats just a little bit more going to harm?
This is the reverse stone soup story. First we have an angry youth who does some polluting, or some drunks , or fishermen who's mommy didn't come with them to clean up after the baby. Then "Its Polluted! its horrible! Person throws down coffee cup/garbage in disgust. Next person who sees the garbage does the same until we have a mountain of garbage.
Everybody hating the garbage and the city for not cleaning up. Most everyone is too special to pick up garbage they see, but they can complain about it.
Everyone is recycling but no one is picking up the garbage that's out there already, and no ones seeing progress from recycling because everyone is a Chief and won't pick the garbage they see.

Aesop's Fables:The Lion and the Bulls

2010-04-19T21:20:00.001-04:00

Aesop's Fables
The Lion and the Bulls pg 32
A Lion often prowled about a pasture where three bulls grazed together. He had tried without success to lure one or the other of them to the edge of the pasture. He had even attempted a direct attack, only to see them form a ring so that from whatever direction he approached he was met by the horns of one of them.
Then a plan began to form in the lion's mind.
Secretly he started spreading evil and slanderous reports of one bull against the other.
The three bulls, distrustingly, began to avoid one another, and withdrew to a different part of the pasture to graze. Of course, this was exactly what the lion wanted. One by one he fell upon the bulls, and so made easy prey of them all.

Moral: United we stand, divided we fall.

Art or insane? 1994

2010-04-19T09:11:00.005-04:00

I just learnt of this .
"K Foundation Burn a Million Quid was an action that took place on 23 August 1994, in which the K Foundation (an art duo consisting of Bill Drummond and Jimmy Cauty) burned one million pounds sterling in cash on the Scottish island of Jura. This money represented the bulk of the K Foundation's funds, earned by Drummond and Cauty as The KLF, one of the United Kingdom's most successful pop groups of the early 1990s. The incineration was recorded on a Hi-8 video camera..." wikipedia

Art or insane?
Should they have been helped for their illness?

Where were you in 1994?
Why didn't you stop them? (joke)

Joke April 17th 2010

2010-04-17T07:18:00.002-04:00

Expressing emotions rage anger

2010-04-15T14:01:00.004-04:00

Expressing emotions rage and anger . Where does it come from? Is it in a DNA genome? A cell in the body?
I inherited my (external) behavioural response to feeling anger from my ancestors?
A gene is defective in the "mentally ill"?
Dealing with anger-rage is a learnt-trained behaviour in my opinion, not programmed into the DNA.
To get angry , the person must perceive an insult, or an injustice, or a wrong doing(a lie).
A person has to have SOME self interest, self worth, self love, vanity to be insulted.

Anger is an expected reaction in "normal" people to an insult, rarely is anger an expected or healthy response in the "mentally ill". If a mentally ill person feels angry, they need more "medication" for their mental illness.

My mother when she gets angry, goes into a rage and is totally uncommunicative, and it is not possible to negotiate, or debate the facts to reach an understanding. She won't listen. My father when angry also goes into a rage or a silent burning. Guess how I turned out with my feelings of anger?
Who do you think I (and all "mentally ill") learnt this-their behaviours from?
Supposed doctors would have us believe we humans named M.I. are robots responding to flawed DNA, chemically broken brains.

Oh you can't blame the parents oh no ( they are the one who have the money to possibly pay the doctor bills). It is in the DNA! Yeah that's it.

Its the only thing they can sell as a (physical) solution to emotional problems, a magical chemical.

Towel of Babel :Double-Binds in Psychiatry Part 2

2010-04-15T08:01:00.004-04:00

Continuing the story? of the Towel of Babel :Double-Binds in Psychiatry

When the patient is inside an institution/psych ward and is sane what happens then?

IF, If the person can communicate the only thing they can say is they were sick but are getting better.
“The only way out was to tell the psychiatrists that they were correct. I am insane but getting better.” Rosenhan.

Rosenhan experiment
youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZ5l5Npfdsg

For a patient to be able to do this communication, one must be able to recognize who is in charge (as in be intelligent), they themselves are in a jail and the ability and skill to lie successfully.

Not many have these abilities. During this time the patient HAS TO take the drugs for their illness. The drugs...

make the astrology predictions come true, the helpful drugs.

Abnormal secretion of milk, abnormalities in movement and posture, agitation, anemia, asthma, blood disorders, breast development in males, chewing movements, constipation, difficulty breathing, difficulty swallowing, dizziness, drooling, drowsiness, dry mouth, ejaculation problems, eye problems causing fixed gaze, fainting, fever, flu-like symptoms, fluid accumulation and swelling, headache, heart attack, high or low blood sugar, hives, impotence, inability to urinate, inability to move or talk, increase of appetite, infections, insomnia, intestinal blockage, involuntary movements of arms and legs, tongue, face, mouth, or jaw, irregular blood pressure, pulse, and heartbeat, irregular or no menstrual periods, jitteriness, light-headedness (on standing up), lockjaw, mask-like face, muscle stiffness and rigidity, narrow or dilated pupils, nasal congestion, nausea, pain and stiffness in the neck, persistent, painful erections, pill-rolling motion, protruding tongue, puckering of the mouth, puffing of the cheeks, rapid heartbeat, red or purple spots on the skin, rigid arms, feet, head, and muscles (including the back), seizures, sensitivity to light, severe allergic reactions, shuffling walk, skin inflammation and peeling, sore throat, spasms in jaw, face, tongue, neck, mouth, and feet, sweating, swelling of breasts in women, swelling of the throat, tremors, twitching in the body, neck, shoulders and face, twisted neck, visual problems, weight gain, yellowed skin and whites of eyes's.

The drugs are the invisible beating from the owners.
How else do you get someone to cooperate?

hydrotherapy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-seD7PhGgGg

"Within the walls of the hospital you see behind them, the ice has just melted -- literally. Following the ideas of Henri Laborit, they had been giving chlorpromazine as part of an effort to enable the body to be cooled down with ice, in the hope that cooling would produce an anti-stress effect that would be useful in the treatment of nervous problems. The nursing staff observed that it made little difference whether chlorpromazine was given with or without ice - it was beneficial either way. Delay and his team had stumbled into the crucial discovery of the antipsychotic effect of chlorpromazine that underpins modern psychiatry....The great boast of the advocates of chlorpromazine was that it had restored humanity to the asylums. Previously, lunatics had been guarded by jailers, who treated them brutally. Now it was possible for therapists to see the humanity of their patients and talk to them." Dr David Healy.

AdSense is a bust

2010-04-15T07:56:00.002-04:00

AdSense for Content top channels 8,478 42 0.50% $1.39 $11.79

It is a bust. No use continuing.
Flaws in my blog as described in the instruction-guide series at
http://www.canadianweblogawards.com/2010/03/keep-your-weblog-functional.html

Feeling guilty at the dentist office

2010-04-14T19:30:00.002-04:00

Feeling guilty at the dentist office

Went to the dentist today for a check up and cleaning. No problems.

I told him of the story of the landlord how I won my case. How the landlord appealed and will hopefully lose the appeal.

How now (if-when I get it) I have to spend the money (keep the receipts) or I will get into trouble with welfare.

Dentist says " It will be a fun spending spree because it is his money!"

I think to myself in my head "Shit I spend your tax money every month because I'm not working and on welfare"
Feel guilty a bit.

Towel of Babel :Double-Binds in Psychiatry Part 1

2010-04-14T08:54:00.005-04:00

http://www.successfulschizophrenia.org/articles/dblbinds.html
In these examples at successful schizophrenia the patient is well educated AND can communicate his thoughts.
What if the patient is not well educated? Does not know how to form sentence, does not know how to converse.
What if the patient can not communicate?

Whenever she gets stuck in a conversation, she tends to stare, making people around her uncomfortable. She doesn't mean to be impolite - it's just her way of watching and learning. --

--

"Social Skills

Social inability can be a lifelong problem. Therefore it is imperative that social skill deficits be identified early and addressed in much the same way as we identify and address children's learning problems because social incompetence can be more debilitating and detrimental to success in life than learning problems.

There are several types of social skills that must be mastered for a child to be socially adept. These range from the ability to initiate, maintain and end a conversation to reading social signals to more complex skills such as solving problems and resolving conflict. The following examples represent some of the fundamental principles of relating well to others. Children with social skill deficits can be taught these skills directly by parents, teachers and/or professionals using the strategies of modeling, role-playing, rehearsal and practice."

Successful Schizophrenia excerpt

The resident said "Tony, your behavior is sick. We can treat you here as an out-patient, but you must understand you are mentally ill before we can make any progress."

Tony shouted "No, I'm not. You doctors are crazy if you think I'm mentally ill!"

Doctor: (voice raised) "We've argued about this before. You must believe you are mentally ill or we can't help you."

Tony's face got red. His nostrils flared. His breathing quickened. He yelled, "I'm not mentally ill!"

Tony's wife reached over and put her hand on his arm.

The doctor yelled "Yes you are!"

Tony yelled "No I'm not!"

Doctor: "Yes you are!"
__________________
Ron: "Yes. Everyone is trying to brainwash me. My wife, my parents, the sales manager. Everyone is trying to push their thinking into my head."

"How do you feel about all this?"

Ron: "I feel angry. They say they have done this to help me, but they don't care about me. They're all selfish. Afraid I'll upset their tight little worlds. I shouldn't be here."

What happens when the patient can't live up to the expected standards of communication is then they are judged severely mentally ill.

Would I have misperceived some of the humming as psychosis? Which medications would I have started?

Everything I would have done-- wrong.

Maybe then drugged , maybe because the patient is angry at not being understood and in jail.
The drugs poisonous effects on the brain further stop the chance of communication being possible.
.

Not only did the rediagnoses of schizophrenia hold to the narrower definitions, Harding's study in The American Journal of Psychiatry (Vol. 144, No. 6, p. 718-735) showed that 62 percent to 68 percent of those former back ward patients showed no signs at all of schizophrenia. "They just didn't have them anymore."

These guys are doctors?

2010-04-12T21:24:00.002-04:00

From the New York Times
"Hallucinogens Have Doctors Tuning In Again
By JOHN TIERNEY
Published: April 11, 2010"
Scientists are taking a new look at hallucinogens, which became taboo among regulators after enthusiasts like Timothy Leary promoted them in the 1960s with the slogan “Turn on, tune in, drop out.” Now, using rigorous protocols and safeguards, scientists have won permission to study once again the drugs’ potential for treating mental problems and illuminating the nature of consciousness.

"illuminating the nature of consciousness" is not medicine.
hallucinogens are not medicines , they are drugs.

Usually doctors are trying to stop hallucinations, now they want to induce them?
Make up your mind already.

Aesop's Fables:Horse and the Stag

2010-04-12T09:48:00.003-04:00

Aesop's Fables
The Horse and the Stag pg 31
A bitter quarrel arose between the horse and the stag in the days when both creature roamed wild the forest.
The horse came to the hunter to ask him to take his side in the feud.
The hunter agreed, but added "If I am to help you punish the stag, you must let me place this iron bit in your mouth and this saddle upon your back."
The horse was agreeable to the man's conditions and he soon was bridled and saddled. The hunter sprang into the saddle, and together they soon had put the stag to flight. When they returned, the horse said to the hunter, "Now if you will get off my back and remove the bit and the saddle, I won't require your help any longer."
"Not so fast, friend horse," replied the hunter.
"I have you under bit and spur, and from now on you shall remain the slave of man."

Moral : Liberty is too high a price to pay for revenge.

___________
My conjecture, mans battle with his demons is the horse and the stag. The psychiatrist is the hunter, who drives madness (stag) away with chemicals .
Once free of madness the horse can not have freedom, as the stag is part of the horse.
Once judged a mentally ill patient with saddle and bit in mouth , (its a brain chemical imbalance, I need chemicals) always a patient to psychiatry.

Pictures of the day April 11th 2010

2010-04-11T08:03:00.003-04:00

Flowers

Fallen Tree

.

This tree was dead and rotting and as it fell down, came down, it took down a young tree next to it.
And yes that is a 40 OZ'S glass bottle in the wide shot next to the rock. Was the glass bottle worth anything to an antique collector? because I threw it out.

The younger tree had some damage to start with near the base, but might have lived had the diseased tree not fallen on it.
A physical representation of the Scorpion and the Frog story told to people in recovery.
Do not hang around with old friends who continue to abuse drugs/alcohol.

The Scorpion and the Frog
One day, a scorpion looked around at the mountain where he lived and decided that he wanted a change. So he set out on a journey through the forests and hills. He climbed over rocks and under vines and kept going until he reached a river.

The river was wide and swift, and the scorpion stopped to reconsider the situation. He couldn't see any way across. So he ran upriver and then checked downriver, all the while thinking that he might have to turn back.

Suddenly, he saw a frog sitting in the rushes by the bank of the stream on the other side of the river. He decided to ask the frog for help getting across the stream.

"Hellooo Mr. Frog!" called the scorpion across the water, "Would you be so kind as to give me a ride on your back across the river?"

"Well now, Mr. Scorpion! How do I know that if I try to help you, you wont try to kill me?" asked the frog hesitantly.

"Because," the scorpion replied, "If I try to kill you, then I would die too, for you see I cannot swim!"

Now this seemed to make sense to the frog. But he asked. "What about when I get close to the bank? You could still try to kill me and get back to the shore!"

"This is true," agreed the scorpion, "But then I wouldn't be able to get to the other side of the river!"

"Alright then...how do I know you wont just wait till we get to the other side and THEN kill me?" said the frog.

"Ahh...," crooned the scorpion, "Because you see, once you've taken me to the other side of this river, I will be so grateful for your help, that it would hardly be fair to reward you with death, now would it?!"

So the frog agreed to take the scorpion across the river. He swam over to the bank and settled himself near the mud to pick up his passenger. The scorpion crawled onto the frog's back, his sharp claws prickling into the frog's soft hide, and the frog slid into the river. The muddy water swirled around them, but the frog stayed near the surface so the scorpion would not drown. He kicked strongly through the first half of the stream, his flippers paddling wildly against the current.

Halfway across the river, the frog suddenly felt a sharp sting in his back and, out of the corner of his eye, saw the scorpion remove his stinger from the frog's back. A deadening numbness began to creep into his limbs.

"You fool!" croaked the frog, "Now we shall both die! Why on earth did you do that?"

The scorpion shrugged, and did a little jig on the drownings frog's back.

"I could not help myself. It is my nature."

Then they both sank into the muddy waters of the swiftly flowing river.

Self destruction - "Its my Nature", said the Scorpion...

Horse Flowchart

2010-04-10T07:49:00.002-04:00

Just found a "new" flowchart on solving the question "Are you a horse?"

The youts are angry?

2010-04-10T07:10:00.002-04:00

The youts are angry?
Three glass panels broken.

The Flip Side

2010-04-09T08:56:00.003-04:00

Over at another blog, a guy is asking for his debt to be forgiven due to his medical disability. I don't know if he will get it or not.

Here is the flip side for you. If I actually do get to collect the money from my former landlord for his failures to act properly. If I get the money I can't keep it on top of my social-assistance/welfare.

In essence if I have any income , I won't get any social-assistance/welfare.

So I won't benefit much.

I'll buy some things, get some new things I need , but I don't know how the increase in my bank balance going to go down with the boss man.

Pink Floyd
"Money, so they say
Is the root of all evil
Today

But if you ask for a raise
It's no surprise that they're
Giving none away"
Anyways they own me but I can't complain for the free money they have given over the years, so...

To have one, we must have the other

2010-04-07T06:06:00.009-04:00

To have one, we must have the other
War, Death, Pestilence, and Disease
converted to
War, Death, low food production, and bad health.

peace, birth, plentiful food, and good health, must come before.

there can be no war without technology, leaders and a population willing to fight one

there can be no deaths without births.

there can be no famine without a time of plenty.

there can be no bad health without a time of good health to know the difference.

Once something has power, they enjoy their power, enjoy being alive, and will fight to stay alive.

For example the tobacco industry, their power came from money, they fought and still are fighting to sell their drug product and people want the product.

Alcohol was banned in prohibition, but people still knew of and wanted alcohol so peoples demand caused a supply to exist.

Drug companies sell the fiction of a magical pill, and people are stupid or desperate enough to buy it.

That doctors participate in this fraud is crazy .

2006 List of bestselling drugs

                                                            USD millions
8    Zyprexa             Olanzapine                         4,364
10   Risperdal           Risperidone                        4,183
13   Effexor             Venlafaxine                        3,722
16   Seroquel            Quetiapine                         3,560
29   Lexapro, Cipralex   Escitalopram                       2,696
31   Ambien, Stilnox     Zolpidem                           2,545
39   Zoloft              Sertraline                         2,110
49   Wellbutrin          Bupropion                          1,926
50   Abilify             Aripiprazole                       1,900
75   Cymbalta            Duloxetine                         1,316
94   Paxil, Seroxat      Paroxetine                         1,147
118  Concerta            Methylphenidate                      930
125  Adderall            Amphetamine                          864
138  Geodon, Zeldox      Ziprasidone                          758  
162  Strattera           Atomoxetine                          579
167  Lunesta             Eszopiclone                          567
                                                   Total= 33,167 Million dollars
 or 33 Billion dollars and change.

"In 2009, Chinese tobacco product industry realized the sales revenue of CNY 443.41 billion (or about 65.08 Billion USD)"

"Oct 22, 2009 Philip Morris International — which has offices in Lausanne, Switzerland, and New York said it earned $1.79 billion during the quarter. It is the world's second-biggest cigarette maker after the state-controlled China National Tobacco Corp"

clean car fix

2010-04-06T06:23:00.001-04:00

Average horsepower of cars and light trucks decreased from 137 horsepower in 1975 to a low of 102 in the 1981/82 period, then rose 63 percent by 1996.

How many horses do you have under your hood?

How much food would 150 horses need? per person.
How much methane-green house gases would 150 horses (per person) produce?

Law of conservation of energy. To convert Sun power or Wind power directly to electricity is very efficient. A/the problem is that people expect to travel at (car) speeds that are not efficient.

"Because air resistance increases so rapidly with speed, above about 30 mph (48 km/h), it becomes a dominant limiting factor. Driving at 45 rather than 65 mph (72 rather than 105 km/h), results in about one-third the power to overcome wind resistance, or about one half the energy per unit distance, and much greater fuel economy can be achieved."

Aesop's Fables:Fox and the Hedgehog

2010-04-05T14:31:00.004-04:00

Aesop's Fables
The Fox and the Hedgehog pg 29-30
A fox in some unaccountable fashion got his tail entangled in a thicket which held him as closely as though he had been caught in a trap. In no time at all myriads of mosquitoes, seeing his plight, settled down upon him to enjoy a good meal undisturbed by his brush.
A hedgehog who chanced to be strolling by felt sorry for the fox and approached him, saying:"Friend fox, you seem to be in a most unfortunate situation. Would you like me to make you more comfortable by driving off these bloodsucking pests?"
But to the hedgehog's surprise the fox replied:"No thank you, my good friend, but I beg you not to disturb them."
"And why not?" persisted the well meaning hedgehog.
"Well, you see,"replied the fox, " these mosquitoes which you see have already drawn their fill of blood. If you chase them away a fresh swarm of hungry ones will descend upon me and they will not leave a drop of blood in my body."

Moral: A needy thief steals more than one who enjoys plenty.

Speaking of the mosquitoes I guess.
I just read ahead in the book and next Mondays is a much better fable.

Just thought of an analogy, mankind sucking on earth ( full mosquitoes), global warming is going to make mankind relocate where man lives, and we are gonna suck even harder... possibly.

reposting : confuse "sick" with "evil

2010-04-03T22:04:00.007-04:00

People confuse "sick" with "evil", as God is dead ( in choices of good or evil) in today's world of science and brain chemical imbalances as the reason for mental illness.
Accidental (human pollution) = Sick
Purposeful (intend harm ie food tampering) = Evil

Screenshot of CBC and the most popular comment "how sick" AT THE BOTTOM.
Click on it to enlarge.

Went to court April 1st 2010

2010-04-01T16:35:00.002-04:00

I went to court for the landlords appeal.
I got very angry and accused the landlord of being a liar.
The landlord lied from the first second the court started, by not knowing his address.

I had to stay silent and hope the judge could perceive it.
I hoped this in the repossession of my apartment ( landlord against me), but the judge ?believed? his constant retractions to fit reality.

I caught him in a lie of when he "moved", and he muttered something, but I don't know if the judge noticed.
I was very disappointed that I did not get to submit my proof ( large folders of papers). I couldn't read the expression of the judge , when the judge didn't want it, is this was a good thing or a bad thing?
Being pessimistic I took it as a bad thing.

Names

2010-03-31T07:45:00.008-04:00

You will grow into it.

A blogger named ambulance driver wrote this bit a few days ago.

http://ambulancedriverfiles.com/2010/03/r-e-s-p-e-c-t/

"Once upon a time, I was one of those medics who used to bristle at being called an “ambulance driver.” With the nurses, I’d usually respond with “ass wiper.” If it was a respiratory therapist, I’d call them “snot jockey.” Cops were “donut receptacles.” Non-EMS firefighters were “hose monkeys....”

"If people who should know better still call you an ambulance driver, it is because they choose to remain

ignorant or disdainful. Arguing with such assholes only gives them the power to make you look like an asshole, too.

And really, why should the opinion of someone like that matter to you anyway?"

My first thought-feeling at the title "Ambulance Driver" is a slight humor, as I know an ambulance technician-worker-medic (what do you call it?) does more than just drive the car.
From my perspective he is kind of setting himself up for failure, as what else can I call him BUT the name "ambulance driver"?
I have no other name to address him by, so when/if I call him AD in conversation, he would likely get angry.

Using this example , if I only title myself , or identify myself as a bipolar or schizophrenic (whatever kind of M.I.) , I might become the title. Another aspect of the stickiness of diagnostic labels and how in the long term, patients (who are "good"patients, as in obedient patients) are affected if they accept or are conditioned ( by institutional-quasi-religious mental health workers) to believe in their given label description. That they (the eternal patient) are hostage to a disease that needs magical chemicals, its real because "WE" the medical professionals(authority) believe the description to be true.

I shouldn't let a fictional disease define me, but when everyone around me believes in the "magic" of psychiatric insults-descriptions, its very hard to escape.

Stephany at Soulful Sepulcher may have know this, and thought to put my given name "Mark", next to my blog title on her blog roll. Very thoughtful of her.

RE:"Magic" term
People confuse "sick" with "evil", as God is dead ( in choices of good or evil) in today's world of science and brain chemical imbalances as the reason for mental illness.

Grocery industry offers $10,000 reward in Calgary food tampering outbreak
"Clearly there are some sick people out there. Usually it only manifests itself Halloween, but I guess these people have to do something when it's not Halloween," said police chief Rick Hanson.

"Hey Police Chief Rick Hanson, tell me who fed these birds?" says Mark p.s. 2

Accidental (human pollution) = Sick
Purposeful (intend harm ie food tampering) = Evil

Tomato on "Lost"

2010-03-30T20:08:00.004-04:00

If you watched the TV show "Lost" tonight, you might have seen a scene with the doctor and the lady who hit her head running away from John Lock/Smoke monster and forgot how to speak english.
He hands her a tomato she had grown-farmed and says "I guess no one told it to die"

this is very similar to what I wrote
the-tree-didnt-get-the-memo November 24

Joke: Life is...

2010-03-30T08:10:00.002-04:00

Speak of the...

2010-03-27T11:36:00.003-04:00

Yesterday or so I wrote of feeding the seagulls the leftovers of my morning apple.
Today as I arrive at the park, I found a seagull trying to eat an apple on the side of the road.
An uneaten (by human) red apple.

Update on bad news

2010-03-26T15:03:00.003-04:00

I found out the reason why my father was particularly "ill" this week.
They did a 50% reduction of his neurological medication, I found out from his partner.
I said "Well then it was maybe withdrawal symptoms."
Response,"The doctors know what they are doing. There is no such thing as withdrawal symptoms."

Religious believers in magical medications that only do GOOD things to people and doctors are infallible.

Full Circle

2010-03-25T11:45:00.005-04:00

As today March 25, 2010 I wish my father to be "helped" before something bad happens due-to-his-senility, it occurs to me things have become a full circle.
As when I was young and seemingly crazy, my parents thought I needed help.
Full circle, on my fathers side.

Note for blog Diary history reasons.
I am still getting outside to view nature, reduce my stress level, stress that a four walled room seems to make worse.
In the past I wrote on my blog of seeing a beaver go downstream in fall, this spring, just today I saw a beaver go upstream at the round cement drain "rapids" spot in the river. Other news, I believe the seagulls expect the remains of my morning apple every day now, two seem to greet me "hello" in the morning.

Bad news: personal

2010-03-24T20:02:00.001-04:00

Bad news
I visited my father today and he is seriously senile or over-medicated.
I would say a danger to himself as his stupidity is great.
How stupid? He doesn't know how to put his pants on, or do up his belt buckle.
He could be easily robbed of his wallet, outside by himself.
Someone has to take his car keys away.
Don't know how its going to be done.

Mental illness in Animals

2010-03-24T07:59:00.003-04:00

Denying the pet access to the focus of its behavior has mixed results. For example, a bandage or an Elizabethan collar may allow acral lick dermatitis or feline psychogenic alopecia to heal, but once the collar is removed, most cases relapse. In many cases, restricting access will worsen the problem by increasing anxiety or arousal. Instead, the underlying cause of the anxiety or conflict should be identified, removed or the animal desensitized to the stimulus.

Drug therapy: If it isn't possible to bring the cat's behavior under control by changing the stress & environment then it may be necessary to try medications such as anti-depressants or anti-anxiety medications. The goal is usually to give this medication until the behavior decreases, and then gradually taper off the medication.

Medications for life in humans, because if you (kindly) tell the psychiatric patient what you think their problem is- what needs to change, they might get angry?

""OK," said the doctor. (Never question delusion.) "OK, can you tell us who the president is? "

Who is the source of the joke you are laughing at Doctor?
Do you Dr. Psychiatrist like to be laughed at for being a fraud, a dope pusher?

Aesop's Fables:The Goose with the Golden Eggs

2010-03-22T20:54:00.000-04:00

Aesop's Fables:
The Goose with the Golden Eggs pg28
A farmer went to the nest of his goose to see whether she had laid an egg. To his surprise he found, instead of an ordinary goose egg, an egg of solid gold. Seizing the golden egg he rushed to the house in great excitement to show it to his wife.
Every day thereafter the goose laid an egg of pure gold. But as the farmer grew rich he grew greedy. And thinking that if he killed the goose he could have all her treasure at once, he cut her open only to find nothing at all.
Moral : The greedy who want more lose all.

Joke

2010-03-19T10:37:00.001-04:00

Combining some posts

2010-03-18T11:43:00.007-04:00

Combining some posts
I recently did a joke flowchart of a psychiatrist treating his/her patients, funny as it is kind of true.

The conclusion that if the patient looks good, he/she feels good. Billy Crystal Saludos, it's better to look good than to feel good.
Feeling Vanity over other feelings?

I can combine this with "you are only as sick as the secrets you have" in climbing the stairway to heaven.

If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything. ~Mark Twain

Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth. ~Oscar Wilde

If someone is voluntary in the psychiatric system, ( they are deemed-judged a whiner-complainer by most)
they are often rejected in the Catch 22 Logical problem. If you know you have a problem, it then makes you NOT have a problem, because you can perceive it.

With this logic as well we can define everyone in a locked psych ward as involuntary receiving "help".
They are not likely to tell the truth, in order to escape authority/ forced change and to avoid shame and embarrassment of displaying and discussing their own mistakes with someone they MUST trust in order to be a "good" boy/girl patient.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

Two opposite things can be said here "Digging up the past is only going to make you dirty,and the other classic "let sleeping Dogs lay( continue to sleep)"
and the opposite
you can't hide from your past , or move away to escape your trouble.

But the problem I see is the philosophy of meds for life, for mental illness.
The meds continue the cycle of denial.
Effects of psychiatric medicine/drugs.
Psychiatry typically removes the ability of the “severe” mental illness person to work, by administering mind altering addictive meds-drugs and poor self-esteem that comes with a label and expectations of the label-diagnosis of severe mental illness.

The patient can only BE a patient, the patient knows on some level of consciousness that to be a genuine man or woman they must be performing the actions of a man or woman. The label/designation and the mind altering drugs fulfil the societal role as a useless parasite on society. If the patient quits the psychiatric drugs their mental illness often resurface once again, as their thoughts and feelings (the root of mental illness) have not been addressed, just suppressed by antipsychotics/brain tranquilizers. The patient is trapped as a vampire on society , receiving income and-or housing from the Government, from the taxes the working people of their country pay.

You do the same as I

2010-03-17T14:32:00.002-04:00

I found this today going through my stack of papers of memories I am trying to organize.
Written when I was manic or psychotic or schizophrenic or whatever you want to call it.
I wrote this short piece a very long time ago, as in well before 1999. Meant to be sung.
I was still thinking suicidally at the time.
I didn't know what I was writing, I couldn't fathom it, but its meaning is evident to me today.

Title:You do the same as I

You can't love the father of lies,
but you do the same as I.
When I do a little bit of me dies.

You can't love the father of lies,
but I do and I'm still alive.

You can't love the father of lies,
but I do and when I do I die.

The Boy with the Diploma Who Cried Wolf

2010-03-16T09:34:00.001-04:00

Wikipedia writes "The Boy Who Cried Wolf, also known as The Shepherd Boy and the Wolf, is a fable attributed to Aesop The protagonist of the fable is a bored shepherd boy who entertained himself by calling out "Wolf!" Nearby villagers who came to his rescue found that the alarms were false and that they had wasted their time. When the boy was actually confronted by a wolf, the villagers did not believe his cries for help and the wolf ate the flock (and in some versions the boy). The moral is stated at the end of the fable as:

Even when liars tell the truth, they are never believed. The liar will lie once, twice, and then perish when he tells the truth.

In the TV series "Star Trek: Deep Space Nine", a Cardassian proposed a different point of view: that the true moral of the story is not "Do not tell lies" but "Do not tell the same lie twice."

The Boy with the Diploma Who Cried Wolf
A boy went to school and got himself a diploma certificating himself as an official wolf spotter-killer.
He became employed by the town to be the towns wolf spotter-killer.
Initially he did well at his job and protected the town from wolves, but he got greedy as there were few wolves in the area to kill.

The boy decided to invent some and claim he killed them.

With his certificate of authority and contract with the town, the town had to pay him for his kills.
Those that supplied him with the weapons to kill wolves profited greatly as well, and confirmed there was many wolves to be killed and ran advertisements on their product lines.

Witnesses said they saw no wolves being killed and the town was being defrauded, but they were dismissed as they did not have a wolf spotting-killing diploma .
The story continues...

Aesop's Fables:The House Dog and the Wolf

2010-03-16T05:47:00.002-04:00

Aesop's Fables
The House Dog and the Wolf pg 26-27
The moon was shining very bright one night when a lean, half-starved wolf, whose ribs were almost sticking through his skin, chanced to meet a plump, well-fed house dog. After the first compliments had been passed between them, the wolf inquired:
"How is it, cousin dog that you look so sleek and contented? Try as I may I can barely find enough food to keep me from starvation."
"Alas, cousin wolf," said the house dog, "you lead too irregular a life. Why do you not work as steadily as I do?"
"I would gladly work steadily if I could only get a place," said the wolf.
"That's easy," replied the dog. "Come with me to my master's house and help me keep the thieves away at night."
"Gladly," said the wolf,"for as I am living in the woods I am having a sorry time of it. There is nothing like having a roof over one's head and a bellyful of victuals always at hand."
"Follow me," said the dog.
While they were trotting along together the wolf spied a mark on the dog's neck. Out of curiosity he could not forbear asking what had caused it.
"Oh, that's nothing much," replied the dog. "Perhaps my collar was a little tight, the collar to which my chain is fastened..."
"Chain!" cried the wolf in surprise. " You don't mean to tell me that you are not free to rove where you please?"
"Why, not exactly," said the dog, somewhat shamefacedly. "You see, my master thinks I am a bit fierce, and ties me up in the daytime. But he lets me run free at night. It really is very convenient for everybody. I get plenty of sleep during the day so that I can watch better at night. I really am a great favorite at the house. The master feeds me off his own plate, and the servants are continually offering me handouts from the kitchen. But wait, where are you going?"
As the the wolf started back toward the forest he said " Good night to you, my poor friend, you are welcome to your dainties... and your chains. As for me, I prefer my freedom to your fat."

Moral: Lean freedom is better than fat slavery.

Photo of the day March 14, 2010

2010-03-14T18:51:00.003-04:00

The "Bomb" of the two important Registered letters from two different landlords on the same day on Friday is over.
I got some advice on it and things are alright.

news

2010-03-12T14:59:00.003-05:00

I got some registered mail.
Bad news of course.
I'm thinking of deleting my blogs and keeping my mouth shut and smiling for who-ever asks.
Update Saturday
I may have made a mountain out of a moe-hill, so to speak with the difficulties of the papers I have received. With time to reflect I feel much better.

Schizoid formation

2010-03-10T10:53:00.003-05:00

From the book "On a Pale Horse" , by Piers Anthony
Page 191
And the schizoid formation", she said , drawing a pentagon. "Going round and round, getting nowhere, internalizing."
"What use is that?" (asked Zane)
"It might help a person come to terms with an ugly necessity,"she said.

I was at the river yesterday and saw a physical representation of this.
An approximate 6 foot section of ice came down river over a small waterfall, a sudden drop in the river, and the small iceberg went in circles from the backdraft current and forwards currents.
It looked a bit like a circle the "schizoid formation", as it spun round and round gradually bit were broken off, making it smaller.
The river was chewing it up, breaking it down to digest it.

Movement of the ice is better than the stopped action a blocked dam I believe.

Interesting Chess Match

2010-03-09T11:26:00.006-05:00

The start of this ending. The players have the same number of pieces in almost exactly the same position.

White Queen moves to D6

Black Queen afraid of being taken, moves to F6

White Queen calls "Check" on not the shortest distance upward to the top, but on the side angle, as C8 and D8 are both under guard.

Blacks Bishop goes to intercept the attack on C8

White Queen takes the Bishop and calls "Check" again.

Black Queen intercepts the attack on D8

White Queen takes Black Queen and calls "Check" With the Black King unable to move, makes it CheckMate!

Aesop's Fables:The Hare and the Hound pg25

2010-03-08T20:07:00.000-05:00

Aesop's Fables:
The Hare and the Hound pg25
One day a hound, out hunting by himself, flushed a hare from a thicket and gave chase. The frightened hare gave the dog a long run and escaped. As the disappointed hound turned back towards home, a passing goatherd said jeeringly "You are a fine hunter! Aren't you ashamed to let a little hare one tenth your size give you the best of it?"
"You forget," replied the hound, "that I was only running for my supper, but the hare was running for his life!"

Moral: Necessity is our strongest weapon.

Perspective

2010-03-08T09:48:00.006-05:00

I was doing the work of trying to collect my court judgement yesterday.
The judgement include interest on the sums awarded me.
To calculate these numbers is a skill and knowledge.
One Lawyer guy said he would do it for $240.00
Another lawyer did not have the computer program to calculate the numbers.

I found a lawyer who did it by hand.

As she was doing the work we had a discussion.

I thanked her for her skill and intelligence.

She said it wasn't hard, it was just a series of steps.

From my perspective it was a kind of magic as I did not know how to do the work.

She on the other hand did not think it was too big a deal, just a logical series of mathematical steps and rules.

It was a matter of perspective.

This can be applied to many things.

People see their Microwave , Computer, DVD- VCR work and it might be considered magic, but its just a series of small steps put together.

AS there are six(6) aspects to mental well being (physical , intellectual, emotional, spiritual, social, occupational) to run the show you need a working brain of intellectual.
Psychiatry if it turns intellectual down too low or off, it has to take responsibility for all the other aspects to health.
And it doesn't.
People get fat and out of shape (physical)
People can not work. (occupational)

Emotions are played with unsuccessfully due to the incomplete/damaged six aspects.
Social is still possible.
Spiritual? I don't know if it is possible without an entire mind.

Will psychiatry ever learn that (long term use of) legal drugs are no better than illegal drugs to keep people health/happy and diligent-mindfull about their health?

Why doesn't psychiatry educate mentally ill people as well as drugging them?
No profit in that for big Pharma?

Then it goes back to chicken and egg paradox. What came first? Bad decisions on their own OR bad decisions from pharma drugs that kept wisdom of self reflection away?

Mental illness is for life?
Yes people with freedom can make mistakes their entire lives, as long as they have the ability to make choices.

Photo of the day March 2010

2010-03-07T18:48:00.000-05:00

Winter is still here, but it is getting warmer.

Musings of the day Sat March 6th

2010-03-06T05:43:00.003-05:00

People are afraid.
Yesterday I went to a large public park to enjoy the sun/nature etc. I'm guessing I passed about ten groups of people. Two groups of people I passed carried radios , with the radio on, playing some radio music. I left when some extra loud noise of what I think was a motor propelled toy-model airplane started. It could be heard for miles.

This morning I noticed the moon was shining .
Like people are afraid of the dark, (what is out there in the dark?) so put lights on everywhere outside and inside at night, people are afraid of silence, afraid of whats out there. They make a lot of noise.
RE:Radios.Or they were afraid of bears in the woods, but I'm pretty sure there are no bears on the island of Montreal.

Problem solving flowchart

2010-03-03T10:33:00.005-05:00

Additional March 4th
I remembered "Schizophrenia Treatment in Seven Easy Steps" http://www.bonkersinstitute.org/seven.html

And the end, damned if you do, damned if you don't
1. Does patient believe others have acted maliciously or with discriminatory intent?
2. Has patient had odd, strange or bizarre thoughts in the past 7 days?
3. Has patient had visions or seen things others cannot see?
4. Is patient's speech confused, vague, or disorganized?
5. When asked a question, does patient pause for long periods before answering?
6. Does patient's face remain blank or expressionless? ("Disregard changes in facial expression due to abnormal involuntary movements, such as tics and tardive dyskinesia," the manual advises.)
7. Does patient seem withdrawn or unsociable?
8. Does patient dress sloppily, or come to your office with poorly groomed hair? ("Do not rate grooming as poor if it is simply done in what one might consider poor taste," the manual advises.)

If the answer to all eight questions is no, your patient is probably not taking medications as prescribed.

Aesop's Fables:Hare With Many Friends pg 23-24

2010-03-01T06:49:00.001-05:00

Aesop's Fables
The Hare With Many Friends pg 23-24
There was once a Hare who had so many friends in the forest and the feild that she truly felt herself to be the most popular member of the animal kingdom. One day she heard the hounds approaching.
"Why should a popular creature like me have to run for her life every time she hears a dog?" said she to herself. So she went to the horse, and asked him to carry her away from the hounds on his back.
"There is nothing I would rather do, friend Hare," said the horse, " but, unfortunately, right now I have some important work to do for my master. However, a popular creature like you should have no difficulty in getting someone to help you."
Then the Hare went to the bull and asked him whether he would be kind enough to ward off the hounds with his horns.
"My dear friend," replied the bull," you know how I feel about you, and how glad I always am to be of service. But at this very moment I have an appointment with a lady. Why don't you ask our mutual friend the goat?"
But the goat was busy too, and so was the ram, and so were the calf and the pig and the donkey. Each assured the Hare of his undying friendship and anxiety to aid her in her trouble, but each had some excuse which prevented him from performing the service. By this time the hounds were quite near, so the Hare took to her heels and luckily escaped.

MORAL: HE WHO HAS MANY FRIENDS HAS NO FRIENDS.

Bad News Suicide

2010-02-27T20:22:00.003-05:00

Walter Koenig - who played Chekov in Star Trek , his son Andrew Koenig, 41 killed himself.
Story

(no photo)
Marie Osmond's 18-year-old son Michael Blosil reportedly suicided . "Entertainment Tonight reported on its Web site that Blosil jumped to his death Friday night from a downtown Los Angeles apartment building."
Story

Psychiatry is not working any better for the rich and famous than for the average Joe/Jill.

Loneliness and despair drove me to try suicide when I was younger, but I lived.
Angry hospital workers would claim I didn't try hard enough, plan it well. Angry at the waste of life. I chose/feel sad at the waste of life.
If they couldn't live for themselves they could live (work) for someone else less fortunate than themselves.

It is sad that any person listens to the advice of demons of the solution of suicide.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dyihQtBes1I

If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad

update:My PC is about to die

2010-02-25T11:18:00.003-05:00

My PC is about to die from corrupt files, so I might be offline for a while. Days or weeks.
Update: My personal computer did not die, it was repared successfully. If you fear YOU have a virus, run a free online scan at Symantec Security Check (use IE Internet Explorer only).

Chose "Virus Detection" It takes some time to download Symantecs (temporary) online scanner, then (once you click on all the Okays and "Yes" install) it scans all your files. On screen, in text it tells you what part of the computer (hard drive) it is scanning, and tells you right away if there are any infected files.

Jokes

2010-02-25T08:46:00.005-05:00

Humor is a strange thing, like a well crafted lie it needs some truth in it.

The joke in the following picture below is "The problem with women"

.
But it is also pretty close to describing mental illness.

Mental Wellness is
Physical Wellness, Intellectual Wellness, Emotional Wellness, Social Wellness, Spiritual Wellness, Occupational Wellness.

Trying to make a new image , but it hasn't come together.

Hoarding: Is there a method to the madness?

2010-02-24T08:05:00.012-05:00

Hoarding: Is there a method to the madness?

Isn't it a shame?

Look at these pictures of my hording.

A paranoid schizophrenic hoarding.
He must be helped for these (pos? neg? ) symptoms.

Bullshit
More information later.

Later

Do you know how magicians perform their tricks? By manipulating the observer into seeing or believing what is not there, to be there or vice-versa. The misdirection appears to be magic.

Psychiatry does the same thing. It is all a set up. We have misguided people turned into a gear in the machine of Pharmaceutical companies profit.

Here is the set up: we collect things and like to own thing touch , hear and smell them or whatever senses we use. It is perhaps in our human nature or culture.

Collectors who do not have diligence as in example of the first photo of all the banana boxes , are named a hoarder. A psychiatric disease. Never mind our entire culture that is based on constantly consuming products that are manufactured - to-be-happy.

The problem in the first photo is the FIRE HAZARD that comes from not being diligent about organizing the material you own. The amount of material has exceeded "normal" limits . The act of collecting is not bad per-se, only when it becomes un-managed.
It is comparable to slowly gaining weight ( eating slightly too much) to become fat. One day the person notices they are fat. It generally doesn't happen in a short time. People lack diligence/discipline.

How does collecting become un-managed? By people failing to do the work of keeping it organized and non flammable.
The second photo of the cans is maybe art isn't it? It is organized and not hazardous-flammable.

The owner of the first photo with the paper banana boxes needs two things 1) to be able to perceive the problem, and 2) the daily-weekly diligence to do the work of keeping it manageable.

If the person gets psychiatric drugs, the drugs might help them do the work, or the drugs might inhibit their cognitive ability to be diligent. Who knows the odds? I bet they are bad. I bet it is human nature to be slothful. Sloth is a sin that been around since the dawn of time. Sloth has to be fought by the intellect, it can not be fought by a inanimate chemical-pill.

Once a person, for example myself, am named mentally ill, all my actions are mentally ill. My collection of parts in the three photo is a symptom of my mental illness. Probably renamed hoarding, obsessive compulsive or some kind of control complex.

What my collection is, is a collection of spare parts that have potential. I need to keep it organized and manageable. A neuroleptic poison/anti psychotic is not going to help me be diligent, in fact it will probably make me worse, less able to take care of the problem. Drugging paradox of which came first? fulfills the vision of the helpful psychiatrist. Just like the prevision of the precognitive in the movie Minority Report. You have a choice.

There is no way to escape psychiatry and the believers of magical medication. They rule for the time being. Eventually the system will collapse from their need to help people with magical drugs , so take solace in that.

My picture of the brown milk box contains bicycle parts. I needed these parts to fix my bicycle from vandalism, and to make my electric bikes.
My picture of the computers I own, computers are my hobby. I enjoy making things work.
My picture of the white bucket with parts inside had a motor. A specific motor. With this motor I fixed my Sony PlayStation. How else could I possibly have fixed this irreplaceable ( to me) item? $100.00 plus tax for a new one?

OOOOOO

My deceased grandparents who lived through the 1930's depression would call collecting a wise thing to do.

In the news: Murder from mental illness

2010-02-23T07:15:00.002-05:00

Murder
Two recent news stories in the press here, (both) of crazy guys who killed their own children.

"Allan Schoenborn pleaded not guilty to the charges but acknowledged slaying his 10-year-old daughter and two sons, aged eight and five"."I find on balance of probabilities he was suffering from a disease of the mind," B.C. Supreme Court Justice Robert Powers

and coming to trial

Guy Turcotte, 36 (Doctor/Cardiologist ) is facing two charges of first-degree murder in the deaths of his children, Olivier, 5, and Anne-Sophie, 3
Older report "Quebec cardiologist has been charged with two counts of first-degree murder"

The conclusion to Allan Schoenborn trial is the same as Vinci Li ( a third earlier murder) "Vince Li has been found not criminally responsible for the unprovoked killing and beheading of fellow passenger Timothy McLean on a Greyhound bus last summer."

So this is what mental illness is!!!!!!!!!
""Any reasonable or rational person would know that was wrong,(referring to Schoenborn's beliefs before the murder) " he said. "However, due to his psychosis at the time he was not able to make that decision."Justice Robert Powers

I have been wondering all this time.
I wrote in another post "Do you think you know right from wrong? Yes of course you do, so does most every mentally ill person.
The mentally ill have reasons, but their reasoning is faulty according to the sane people.

Even The Last Psychiatrist was writing of it. "Of course his explanation makes sense. What did you expect? Numerology? Bible codes? He's not insane. The man could just as well have railed about blacks or illegal immigrants. It would still all make sense, it would all be internally consistent, and it would all be wrong."

I would reduce it to these people who kill out of mistaken beliefs ( not the 911 plane suicide bombers that's religious belief? a war/ jihad, so that is sane) are just plain stupid or still children in adult bodies. That is assuming they are NOT on any (mind altering) chemicals.

This news and judgement of mental illness makes me feel much better about myself, and my paranoia, paranoia can be a good thing if it makes you question your beliefs to be true or false.

If it is real( as in physical) it can be photographed or measured/amplified and recorded.

Aesop's Fables:The Gnat and the Bull pg 22

2010-02-22T18:44:00.001-05:00

The Gnat and the Bull pg 22
Once there was a silly gnat who kept buzzing about the head of a bull. Finally he settled himself down upon one of the bull's horn.

"Pardon me , Mr. Bull,"he said,"if I am inconveniencing you.If my weight in any way is burdensome to you, pray say so, and I will be off in a moment."

"Oh, never trouble your head about that," replied the bull. "It is all the same to me whether you go or stay. To tell the truth, I was not even aware that you were there."

MORAL:The smaller the mind the greater the conceit.

Monday update on my life

2010-02-22T18:19:00.003-05:00

Well I opened an email that probably had a virus, it looked like a hallmark card. It had stolen its logo and trademark pictures. I was lazy and didn't check its originating address until the hotlink whatever I clicked on didn't work.

Then my antivirus program finds a few virus files ( presumably from this email) and quarantine's or deletes it. Fine no problem.
Then my computer wont start due to virus or deleted files. I don't know which.

I'm now writing on my emergency backup drive and my internet is messed up as well. I couldn't get access to my router from a command line. An update of Firefox had killed my internet. I don't know whats going on.

Then my PlayStation circa1995 appeared to be breaking, and I need it to play chessmaster II. And I tear it apart trying to find the problem to fix it. Well I didn't really fix it, but it still kind of works for now. I'm going to have to run a dedicated old PC to run Chessmaster on when the PlayStation finally stops working.

So its been nuts.

I managed to go outside and went to the store for a few groceries and to have the illusion I can pass for normal. Good thing I went out.
Now for the Aesop's fable. (above this post)

I got google adsense to work

2010-02-17T12:10:00.002-05:00

I got google adsense to work, work as in I got into my account.
I made a few dollars -maybe. I don't know.

To not trigger ads I don't support I will have to write in code. I 'll do the old shift one letter to the left or right.

I.B.M. is H.A.L.

"Although it is often conjectured that the name HAL was based on a one-letter shift from the name IBM,"

Drugs Bad! Drugs Good!

2010-02-17T01:11:00.002-05:00

Aesop's Fables: The Donkey Carrying Salt pg 20-21

2010-02-15T21:32:00.002-05:00

Aesop's Fables:The Donkey Carrying Salt pg 20-21
The rumor reached a certain huckster who owned a donkey that salt was to be had cheap at the seaside. So he and the donkey proceeded down to the shore to buy some. There he loaded his poor beast with as much as it could bear and started for home. As they were passing a slippery ledge of rock, the sorely laden donkey fell into the stream below. The water melted the salt, thus relieving the beast of his burden. Gaining the bank with ease, he pursued his journey homeward light in body and in spirit.
The huckster, nothing daunted, set out again for the seashore for a load of salt. He piled an even heavier burden upon the donkey. On their return, as they crossed the stream into which the donkey previously had fallen by accident, this time he fell down on purpose. As before, the water dissolved the salt and freed him of his load.
Very much provoked by his loss, the master began to think how he could cure his animal of his tricks. So, on the next journey to the seacoast he freighted the donkey with a load of sponges. When they arrived at the same stream as before, the beast was up to his old tricks once more. No sooner was he in the river than the sponges became soaked with water, and instead of lightening his burden, he found as he staggered homeward that he had more than doubled the weight of it.

Moral:An old trick may be played once too often.

Note :Original story has an "Ass" instead of "Donkey" beast.
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Application to psychiatry... I don't know. Three players of patient, psychiatrist and Pharma co.

Okay , master wants work done, beast rebels, master out-thinks beast.

Patient : Injectable drugs and Zyprexa Zydis "The orally disintegrating olanzapine tablet is placed into your mouth and begins dissolving in the mouth within seconds. Once dissolved, it can be swallowed with or without liquid." Beast must take the horrible drugs. Cheaks the drugs, then can't avoid taking the drugs.

psychiatrist: Psychiatrist says regarding the serious problem of mental illness, behaviours are just chemicals, we need the right chemicals, with this lie more and more patients are on chemicals but no one is getting healthy-well. Mental health comes from within, not outside forces. A burden to society in hospital and welfare costs. Burden to the psychiatrists' conscious of failing to be a doctor .

Monday news

2010-02-15T18:26:00.003-05:00

It's Monday that means its Aesops fables day, but I'll do that before the day is up.

The news is that I went to see a lawyer and paid for advice on schizophrenias number 17 "Building". In regards to my legal fight with my former landlord.

The building is now dead. I hope.
Maybe I can cross it off the list of nonsense I hear 24/7.

Saw the Movie Avatar

2010-02-13T07:19:00.002-05:00

I finally went to see the movie Avatar.
To myself, the movie was very emotional in parts, very nicely done, as it was fitting-genuine to the scene, I did not feel the cheap heartstrings steal-manipulation typical of bad directors.

The 3D was nice, my lower right side was blurry a bit for some unknown reason, which took me out of the moment (of the illusion) once or twice.
The (voice) actors was excellent, I could feel the emotion in the voice.
Influenced by Alien, Dances with Wolves, Pocahontas, "Little big Man" in there, but all good work is built after-from the (lift of the ) shoulders of giants, first trail breakers.

I did not like Sigourney Weaver in the film as she is too well known as Ripley in Aliens.

Perhaps she is the hero, women wish they would/could be. A kick ass smart warror, a female James Bond.(As to the reason she was chosen)

If your online personality is the real you, and for many it is, becoming your Avatar is a heaven or hell dream come true.

Photo of the day Feb 11, 2010

2010-02-11T13:00:00.001-05:00

Water and Ice

Its gonna go up to 1 in 10

2010-02-10T07:36:00.006-05:00

Saw on yahoo news the new psychiatrists DSM is coming out.

Changes proposed in how psychiatrists diagnose

Currently serious mental illness is 1 in 17.

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/

It is going to go up to 1 in 10.

The yahoo news story makes me want to puke.

Sure to generate debate, the draft also proposes diagnosing people as being at high risk of developing some serious mental disorders — such as dementia or schizophrenia — based on early symptoms, even though there's no way to know who will worsen into full-blown illness. It's a category the psychiatrist group's own leaders say must be used with caution, as scientists don't yet have treatments to lower that risk but also don't want to miss people on the cusp of needing care.

Sins as mental illness.

Lust vanity (too much desire to be attractive for sex-reproduction) renamed narcissism

gluttony (too much enjoyment of food) renamed binge eating, etc

greed- renamed Gambling addiction

Sloth - (inability to enjoy and be thankful for God's gifts) renamed depression

Autistic after being supercontrolled and locked in a box.

and finally the hubris-Pride of psychiatry helping people who need help. Cruel compassion.

Who is going to show the Psychiatrists they do not have the right to drug people into obedience. Who will show psychiatry Humility?
Are we soul-less biological machines that just need the correct brain chemicals?
Meat puppets?
Got to get the machines working.
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Additional
As the numbers of (seriously) mentally ill increase, due to classifying human-sins as mental illness- a brain chemical imbalance out of the persons control, there will be a need-demand for more psychiatrists and more drugs.
More power to psychiatry, more power to the machine.

Aesop's Fables:The Fox and the Goat pg 19

2010-02-09T07:54:00.003-05:00

Aesop's Fables:The Fox and the Goat pg 19
A Fox had the misfortune to fall into a well from which, try as he might, he could not escape.
Just as he was beginning to be worried a goat came along intent on quenching his thirst.

"Why, friend Fox, what are you doing down there?" he cried. (the goat)

"Do you mean to say that you haven't heard about the great drought, friend Goat?" the Fox said.
"Just as soon as I heard I jumped down here where the water is plentiful. I would advise you to come down, too. It is the best water I have ever tasted. I have drunk so much that I can scarcely move."

When the goat heard this he leaped into the well without any more ado.

The Fox immediately jumped to the Goat's back and using he long horns was able to scramble out of the well to safety.
Then he called down to the unhappy goat the following advice:
"The next time, friend Goat, be sure to look before you leap!"

MORAL:It is not safe to trust the advice of a man in difficulties.
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Wow, a classic today!
So remembering three players in mental illness the patients, psychiatry and big Pharma.

A "man in difficulties" is everyone including the psychiatrist. A psychiatrist can be as depressed or insane as the next fellow. His/her solution of chemicals for depression (from the hole) may be poor advice. People trust doctors, trust their advice of medicine for mental illness.

Difficulties of the soul are not a medical problem, and all humans have them.

A patient listening(trusting) to another patient on what to do for depression, could be wrong.
All the self help books and media out there on the market for sale are Fox's exploiting the naive.

Pharma as the Fox needs money and will sell mental illness-solution-of-drugs to those willing to listen. It is science you know!

Celebrating the simple pleasures of life

2010-02-07T19:29:00.002-05:00

Reading Blogs of one link to another, I came across "Enchanted Oak"

"For each person who participates with a list, a poem, or a prose piece about the joy of simple things, my family will donate $2.00 to Heartline Ministries for their medical clinic and other programs in Haiti."

Link HERE to that specific entry.

Right now I am pretty dry imaginatively, but I was sure I wrote something in the past I could re-use now.
I thought I had written something in all my time on the web blogging, but I haven't.
The best I have are photos I took in the fall, telling (depressed) people to go outside and enjoy the fall colors.

Photo of the day- Go Outside

Go Outside

And this doesn't meet the requirement.
A list then?

Simple Things (I enjoy)
The river, the sound and the sight
The trees, the sound and the sight
The animals and insects, the sound and the sight
The clean air, the smell.

I hope this meets the requirements.

in Memory of SSRI Fatalities

2010-02-07T07:38:00.002-05:00

February 7 - International Day in Memory of SSRI Fatalities

SSRI fatalities are those who have died violently due to homicide of suicide induced by SSRIs and newborns that suffer heart malformations or any other teratogenic disturbance.

This day memorial was created by Ana of justana at hellaheaven.

international-day-in-memory-of-ssri-fatalities

Just a few people have joined the group. Ana was disappointed at the small number.
Like a snowball rolling downhill, in time this seed of those-wronged-seeking-justice will grow, as there are many people who take and are prescribed legal mind altering drugs.
People take them in the mistaken belief the drugs are a medicine, like a real medicine such as an antibiotic.
Eventually the random effects of drugs on human being to do both bad and good will come to light, the drug companies will not be able to suppress the information. People getting ill or cancer from smoking was suppressed for many years, but now everyone knows the possible health consequences to the choice of smoking.

In time people will learn the legal drugs are chemically no different in "goodness" and "badness" from illegal , just because they are legal. They are drugs to affect the mind.

Ana's blog here
http://hellaheaven-ana.blogspot.com/2010/01/post-from-my-other-blog-february-7.html

The things THEY say

2010-02-05T09:02:00.004-05:00

Got to take the medicine-chains to be healthy!
Work! You lazy stupid smelly bastard! Those pills are not chains for your brain. The drugs are medicine for bad molecules in your brain. Molecules only "we" can see.

The illegal door

2010-01-30T15:08:00.004-05:00

Can you spot the difference between these two pictures?

Now why would someone do that?

Osama bin Laden to fight Sin!

2010-01-30T06:15:00.003-05:00

In the news (CTV news) , Osama bin Laden is going environmental.

The al-Qaeda leader blamed the United States and other industrialized nations for climate change and said the only way to prevent disaster was to break the American economy, calling on the world to boycott U.S. goods and stop using the dollar.

To stop global warming, he (Osama bin Laden) called for the "wheels of the American economy" to be brought to a halt. "This is possible ... if the peoples of the world stop consuming American goods."

You think people are going to stop buying shit they don't need Osama bin Laden?
The people are addicted-conditioned to consuming and have no other options but to buy the latest or cheapest crap on sale that comes down from the powers that be.

Osama bin Laden taking on the sins of gluttony, greed and sloth.

Good luck with that chump.

I'll never eat chocolate again

2010-01-30T05:39:00.002-05:00

I had a few days of eating chocolate bars and I'll never eat chocolate again.
The withdrawal is too harsh. Felt a touch of serious despair.

In other news , I lost a blog reader-follower , I had 9 now I got 8. I must have done something pretty bad to get someone to do the trouble of clicking a button to un-follow me.

My computer that uploads videos is still broken, that's why no youtube videos. I'm working on it.

My neighbors are still assholes, as is the way of life, this morning though, it wasn't too bad. Knock on wood.

The magic key

2010-01-26T16:53:00.004-05:00

I'm at the library making photocopies.
The machine decides to cut off my page. Fine 10 cents no big deal , I'll eat it .( take the ten cent loss).

Later, photocopying more, it happens again.
I complain to the library workers.

Library Worker: You have to tell the machine specifically what form of paper .

Me : I just took 5 photocopies and the machine knew what size to make it.

Library Worker: No, you have to tell it what size.

Puts a master key into the coin counter, and prints a copy.

Me: I'm telling you I just printed 5 copies and the machine knew.

Library Worker: Do you want another copy of the other one you lost?

Me: Its too complicated, its stapled all back together.

Library Worker :I have my key in the machine.

To myself :Your key does nothing , the coin counter still took the money out of the positive balance of money I had already put in.

Library Worker :I have my key in the machine.

Your key does not stop the coin counter from taking my money.

Library Worker not said aloud you are stupid, ha ha , I have a magic key.

Me Thanks for the information now go away before I have no more money left in the machine.

Joke

2010-01-26T08:53:00.003-05:00

"Obi-wan is talking in my head and won't shut the fuck up!"

Aesop's Fables:The Fox and the Grapes pg 18

2010-01-25T11:36:00.005-05:00

Aesop's Fables:The Fox and the Grapes pg 18
Mister Fox was just about famished, and thirsty too, when he stole into a vineyard where the sun-ripened grapes were hanging up on a trellis in a tempting show, but too high for him to reach.
He took a run and a jump, snapping at the nearest bunch, but missed. Again and again he jumped, only to miss the luscious prize. At last, worn out with his efforts, he retreated, muttering: "Well, I never really wanted those grapes anyways. I am sure they are sour, and perhaps wormy in the bargain."

Moral: Any fool can despise what he can not get.

I copied this Aesop's Fable a long time back, explaining the Fox is to be "bad" as he is going to steal the grapes, and it is divine justice that he can not reach them. Finally the Fox is judged a fool for trying to make himself feel better for not reaching his goal when he calls the grapes sour and diseased.

It can also be applied to a man seeking a woman, and a woman seeking a man, when unsuccessful the person is a bitch/jerk or a homosexual/lesbian for rejecting their pursuer.
It is a coping mechanism, is it wrong or right? only God knows.

The only lesson here is to not despise what you can't get, if you do then you are a fool.

Application to psychiatry
The fools who keep looking for a magical medicine to fix human choices/human behaviour and in the pursuit (drugging people so they are stupid) create the condition they seek to solve.
Minding-controlling oneself can only come from within, from ones choices.
And the sane people love to hate and fear (despise) the mentally ill for not acting sane.
When drugs temporarily reduce symptoms , the sane person in charge is confirmed to be the sane one.
When symptoms (of not controlling oneself) return, the magical drugs just need to be increased, to make the person sane once again.
Despising human free will.

Prophetic Dreams

2010-01-24T18:17:00.004-05:00

Prophetic Dreams

The trouble with prophecy's is you can't really know what they mean until something happens.

If you have been following my posts, on the 19th I posted...
"I had awoke from a nightmare of seeing my father ill and these strange interlocking wooden doors."

I was uncertain if my father was me, as I look like my father as an adult now, and the wooden doors, to me in the dream looked upright like normal doors but could be interpreted as the wooden doors on a casket.

I was concerned of my fathers health as I took it as his face. (He is fine.)

But the dream face, was really my face, my need for psychiatric pill popping medication for mental troubles is dead.

My mental illness is dead with the winning of my lawsuit against my former landlord.
Decided-Printed on Jan 18th.

I have proved my "paranoia" as real.

The lesson in this is that if you are being F'ed with, stay calm and take photographs and notes.